Some months ago, I was approached by Christen Olivarez, the editor of Artful Blogging, to write an article about my blog. I was stunned and so excited...and felt a little guilty.... since I had been given the chance to write an article about my former blog for Somerset Life previously.
She knew that though, and encouraged me that the readers would still be interested.
As the deadline drew near...I drew a blank. I typically have lots and lots of thoughts swirling in my head...but this time...writer's block.
That's when I started reflecting on what my blog was all about. My thoughts...simple as that.
So, that's what I decided to write. My thoughts on blogging...my experiences...the highs and lows...and my advice to other bloggers out there. Now, these thoughts are by no means profound or even that enlightening, I suppose. But they are real. And that is what I wanted to share. Something real.
Being perfectly honest, sometimes this whole "blogging" thing gets me down...........very down.
And then I get more down beating myself up for getting down about a blog!
But...it's true...I do...
I spend nights lying awake wondering if anyone will care what I have to say...
Or why can't I be as perfect as some others seem...or as happy as they always seem...
Or how do they keep their homes always so spotless...
Or why do some bloggers out there get 90 comments every time...and some...only get 1 or 2?
Or how does everyone else make time to write posts so often and always take time to read and write thoughtful comments on so many others? {this one always puzzles me since I can never seem to keep up}
And...does anyone else ever feel as lonely as I do out there...in this vast blogland?
But of course.....I convince myself, they do not. For surely, everyone else has it all figured out. They are confident in themselves and don't question these things like I do, right?
And lately, some of these things have been weighing on me quite heavily. Which is why I have not been posting or visiting as often. Sometimes, I need to heed my own advice, like in the article that I wrote, and step back...and reconnect with who I am. Remembering that how God made me is perfect. Perfectly imperfect. And that when I am enjoying that...I will flourish...and the resentments, the fears, the doubts...will all beautifully slip away...
So as I dust myself off...and grasp the hand of God to lift me up...I am looking to him for my fulfillment. Not blog comments, not comparisons to others who may be more "inspiring" than I, or envying those who have seemingly perfect lives, because I know they don't...and that perhaps, even they have moments like I do...wavering...wondering...questioning it all...
Or better yet, even if they don't, and somehow their lives are actually just perfect, that that is okay. It's okay that mine isn't because it is still a beautiful one...filled with the ones I love, a life that I love even when it's hard...and most importantly, that it is filled with the love of a God who is so big and yet so small...that he can understand all of these thoughts of mine and find each one important...
So for those of you who happen upon my article in the magazine...I hope that it will encourage you...even if it is only in some small way...and if you ever find yourself wondering any of these questions {and others} just know that you aren't alone...I have thought them too. And then in that thought...the loneliness disappears...
Till next time...











